Experience:LSD (230 ug) - An amazing adventure by vikilikepsych

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Experience reports - LSD

  • Date: 03/2020
  • Age: 16
  • Sex: Male
  • Weight: 75 kg / 165 lbs

Other information

  • Third time doing LSD highest dosage so far
  • 2 tabs sold as fractal storm
  • Preferred setting:outside or inside on a nice day (not the dark because of bad experience)
  • No other substances used in the past 3 weeks or during the experience

Report

During the come up I felt this weird sensation in my chest and head that was like this feeling of bursting excitement. But, at the same time I also felt very tired, probably because I woke up early. The first time I noticed I was starting to trip was when I was on a park bench and the world was just very different and fluid in motion. I looked at the trees and ground in front of me. Everything had a pattern to it almost like the ground was on fire and the trees were breathing. The scenery was also moving to the left and right every few seconds. When I looked at the ground the world would always form patterns as if they were always there but you just couldn't see them normally. Then I looked at the sunrise and it had so many colors and they were all shifting into different colors, it was almost like I was in a dream. I looked at the crows that were cawing on top of a tree and they looked like their fur was all flowing towards their eyes. Then I looked at my girlfriend's face on the park bench and it was the most beautiful face I had ever seen. It was her but everything about her was so amazing and I looked at her and she had the purest soul I had ever seen. When we kissed I didn't want to stop kissing her, it felt like the most amazing and sexual kiss. Suddenly, I felt super cold even though before it felt like a very warm day, so my girlfriend walked me partially the way home. I didn't want to leave her because I thought she was so beautiful. It took a while to convince me to leave to go back to my house and she promised me she would hang out with me in an hour or so, I agreed and then started to walk home without her and it felt like I was leaving a part of me behind. As I was walking home, I saw a lot of robins and normally they would fly away very quickly but as I was watching them they were flying away in slow motion almost like they were flying slower than usual.

I got home and the first thing I did was feel my skin and it was very tingly and it looked very in depth and swirly and the hairs on my skin were flowing. I touched a lot of objects. It was very pleasurable and euphoric, especially touching my own body. It was almost like I was feeling the nerves under my skin. While feeling my skin and body I noticed that my heart was racing which made my chest feel very strange. I looked at multiple paintings around my house and they were expanding and contracting in my vision every few seconds; the paintings were also flowing like the painting had a tv screen over it making it animated. While I focused my eyes on one thing the things around it also started expanding and contracting as well. My body felt very odd but not uncomfortable: it felt like my body was more one with the air and the universe rather than myself it was very pleasurable and whenever I breathed in it made my body tingle and feel cold. I tried to think about my life before this experience but it was all this blur that didn't make any sense. It was almost as if the LSD was forcing me into this new life and reality so I can learn more about why I am on this earth or what my purpose was here. Time also was really slow especially at the peak, something that took 10 minutes would feel like it took an eternity to do or accomplish.

Eventually, I told my body that I needed to go upstairs because I knew my dad would be coming downstairs soon; I went upstairs and sat on my bed and started hearing weird noises that I'm having trouble trying to describe now. They were like waaaaaaas, and then they changed to shrrples and the le just kept going until it changed into a springggggg sound and it just kept going for a while changing into different sounds. I also started noticing weird flashing lights in the bottom of my vision that only really showed up when it was semi dark. Then I closed my eyes and saw all this geometry that it was almost overwhelming, but it formed cool algorithmic patterns that were very clear, bright, and fluid in motion. While closing my eyes the flashing became more prevalent but not a big part of the experience. After that I sat crossed legged on my bed and looked at my fabric carpet that looked crazy -the carpet was shifting in different directions and growing up and then going back down- then all of a sudden I thought that those carpet strands could be wasps. Then I heard this zzzzzzzzzz sound everywhere around the room, the strands started growing and growing and growing until they looked like they were two feet off the ground and they turned into giant wasps and it freaked me out (this would lead to me being anxious whenever I walked into my room).

I started getting very paranoid and anxious so I ran into my bathroom to try and calm down away from my carpet. I listened to music and closed my eyes and told myself that, "this is all a trip, it's all fake". Then I stood up and looked at my weird body in a mirror that looked very alien. the right side of my face kept shrinking inward and the left side kept getting bigger and my pupils were very dilated but my pupils kept moving in and out even though there was no change in light. My face looked almost cartoon like but it looked very in depth and alive, with effects across my entire face . Then I looked at my phone and it almost looked like a portal into a new world; I opened snapchat and everyones name was very squiggly and emojis exploded onto the screen. It was very cool and it made me laugh a lot. Then I looked at my drawing that I made a while ago that was very colorful and psychedelic to see if it was doing anything and it was crazy. Everything was moving around like it was alive and it was flowing. Then once I was less frightened by my carpet I decided to play around with it a bit more. I thought of tarantulas and then all the strands turned into spiders, then I thought of worms, crows, and then I went down on the carpet and looked at it from a different angle and the fabrics started forming mountains and hills. I started laughing so much. After that, I went back to looking at myself in the mirror and just kept feeling myself and laughing.

All of a sudden I felt a lot more energized than before and wanted to explore the world again. Then I realized that this stimulation I felt wanted me to explore the world and see as much as possible. Since my girlfriend said she would hang out with me again I called her and asked if she could come over and she said yes. Before she came over I listened to music and it just sounded very odd. If I put it on full blast it didn't actually feel as loud when I was sober almost suppressed in a way. But, it sounded a lot better and made me feel very euphoric. This actually influenced some of my cognitive effects due to the tone of the music. For example: if it was very upbeat music it made me want to dance and jump around, or if it was sad it made me feel bad for the person singing the song. The LSD made me start thinking about what they were going through and how it could happen to me in my life at some point. When she came over and started driving around I kept telling her about how great all these songs were and tried explaining the meaning of them to her. Being in a car was very odd because it felt like the car was going super fast and then when we were about to turn it felt like we were gonna crash. When I got out of the car I looked at the trees and the bark was very wobbly making it look like it was breathing. The grass and the cement was forming symmetrical geometric patterns that were always very wobbly. Then I waved my hand in the side of vision and I saw after images of my hand for a little but then it went away after a bit. We walked inside and watched a show but I was so energized I wanted to go on another hike and see more scenery. So we drove out to a park and we were going through these amazing hills with mansions on them and it made me think about how happy I am to live in such an amazing area in the world.

We got to the hike which felt like an eternity to get to and we started walking toward this waterfall and everything around me looked like it was breathing and it looked amazing. Everything around me looked very bright and beautiful like a paradise in nature, to the rocks that had vivid patterns, to the path that was forming symmetrical patterns with all the pebbles, to the bark on the trees that looked like it's breathing, and even the sky which was forming ghost faces and crazy patterns that were massive in size. I was walking very fast maybe because I was super excited or because it felt like I was floating and my girlfriend had trouble keeping up with me a lot of the time. While I was walking I was only looking around and not at my body so it almost felt like I was floating through this wilderness. At one point my girlfriend (whose hand I was holding) and I seemed to have become one entity and I completely forgot who I was and was in awe in the world around me and I felt one with the earth which was a feeling that I may never forget. it was almost as if we both merged into new entity that was totally immersed and one with the earth. We saw the waterfall and it was amazing: the white water that just came falling from the waterfall was very swirly, the rocks were breathing and they were moving in on themselves; the moss was breathing and coming towards me and I touched it and it felt like I was communicating with it, the sky was still forming massive patterns, and everything just looked bright and very beautiful.

After the peak there was not much to note until I got out of the dentist and I started talking to my brother, who is 9, on the offset. My dad was in a meeting and we had to wait for him and I usually don't talk to my brother because he only comes over to my dad's house once a month for 3 days. I started talking to him and he was the most interesting and fun person I have ever met. We played eye spy, corn hole, and walked around and talked about random things about life and we reflected on our lives as a whole. The funniest part was when we talked about why people cursed and I told him you probably shouldn't cause I don't. Then a second later I cursed and then he said, "see, I told you, we all curse because it's a habit that can't be broken", I started laughing a lot after that conversation for no reason. That conversation made me start thinking about things I should change in my everyday life to make myself be a better person. Next, He told me about this system he had with his friends where he traded wood with them for other materials or items. I was imagining it in my head and it sounded so cool and I wanted to learn all about it so he visually explained how it worked and I was in love with learning about it. It really made me think about how lucky and interesting a person he is and why my dad's side of the family treats him really badly all the time. Then he told me he was really happy that I am there for him and not mean to him, that made me very happy and glad that he thought I was a good person and kind hearted.

Not much else to note from the rest of the experience other than the fact that when I got home all I wanted to do was draw. Then I went back to my girlfriend's house and drew for a really long time and then watched Star Trek and was totally immersed into the universe. My girlfriend was talking to me the whole time, I didn't acknowledge her at all and was just so immersed in the show. I brought up my brother and how he was being treated badly by my dad's side of the family to my girlfriend and I exploded and started crying and I could not stop and it was very therapeutic. After that, I talked about my girlfriend's anxiety with her and how she can help it and she said that I helped a lot but I don't remember what I said. Then we went to the mall and met up with some of my friends who were stoned and I felt very connected with them and felt like I could read their minds. It was a very strange feeling that I have never felt before. I was laughing the whole time because they were doing dumb shit and I was very loud even though it felt like I was talking normally. After that, I went back home and I was the most exhausted I have ever felt but I couldn't sleep so I just kept drawing until I passed out.

Submitted by Vikilikepsych

Effects analysis

Physical effects

  • Stimulation - "All of a sudden I felt a lot more energized than before and wanted to explore the world again. Then I realized that this stimulation I felt wanted me to explore the world and see as much as possible."
  • Spontaneous bodily sensations - "I touched a lot of objects. It was very pleasurable and euphoric, especially touching my own body. It was almost like I was feeling the nerves under my skin."
  • Physical euphoria
  • Perception of bodily lightness - "While I was walking I was only looking around and not at my body so it almost felt like I was floating through this wilderness"
  • Tactile enhancement - "especially touching my own body. It was almost like I was feeling the nerves under my skin."
  • Temperature regulation suppression - "Suddenly, I felt super cold even though before it felt like a very warm day"
  • Stamina enhancement - "I was walking very fast maybe because I was super excited or because it felt like I was floating and my girlfriend had trouble keeping up with me a lot of the time."
  • Increased heart rate - "While feeling my skin and body I noticed that my heart was racing which made my chest feel very strange."
  • Increased blood pressure
  • Pupil dilation - "my pupils were very dilated"

Cognitive effects

  • Analysis enhancement - "It was almost as if the LSD was forcing me into this new life and reality so I can learn more about why I am on this earth or what my purpose was here."
  • Anxiety and Paranoia - "I started getting very paranoid and anxious so I ran into my bathroom to try and calm down away from my carpet."
  • Conceptual thinking - "if it was sad it made me feel bad for the person singing the song. The LSD made me start thinking about what they were going through and how it could happen to me in my life at some point"
  • Cognitive euphoria
  • Creativity enhancement - "when I got home all I wanted to do was draw."
  • Immersion enhancement - "I was imagining it in my head and it sounded so cool and I wanted to learn all about it so he visually explained how it worked and I was in love with learning about it."
  • Personal meaning enhancement - "It was almost as if the LSD was forcing me into this new life and reality so I can learn more about why I am on this earth or what my purpose was here."
  • Emotion enhancement - "brought up my brother and how he was being treated badly by my dad's side of the family to my girlfriend and I exploded and started crying and I could not stop and it was very therapeutic"
  • Empathy, affection and sociability enhancement - When she came over and started driving around I kept telling her about how great all these songs were and tried explaining the meaning of them to her."
  • Increased libido - "When we kissed I didn't want to stop kissing her, it felt like the most amazing and sexual kiss."
  • Increased sense of humor - "After that, I went back to looking at myself in the mirror and just kept feeling myself and laughing."
  • Increased sense of humor - "Time also was really slow especially at the peak, something that took 10 minutes would feel like it took an eternity to do or accomplish."
  • Wakefulness - "I went back home and I was the most exhausted I have ever felt but I couldn't sleep"
  • Memory suppression - "I tried to think about my life before this experience but it was all this blur that didn't make any sense."
  • Ego death - "At one point my girlfriend (whose hand I was holding) and I seemed to have become one entity and I completely forgot who I was and was in awe in the world around me and I felt one with the earth which was a feeling that I may never forget. it was almost as if we both merged into new entity that was totally immersed and one with the earth"
  • Increased music appreciation - "Before she same over I listened to music and it just sounded very odd. If I put it on full blast it didn't actually feel as loud when I was sober almost suppressed in a way. But, it sounded a lot better and made me feel very euphoric."

Visual effects

Enhancements
  • Drifting
    • Breathing - "the trees were breathing."
    • Morphing - "I looked at multiple paintings around my house and they were expanding and contracting in my vision every few seconds"
    • Flowing - "the paintings were also flowing like the painting had a tv screen over it making it animated."
  • Pattern recognition enhancement - "When I looked at the ground the world would always form patterns as if they were always there but you just couldn't see them normally."
  • Colour shifting - "Then I looked at the sunrise and it had so many colors and they were all shifting into different colors"
  • Frame rate enhancement - "As I was walking home, I saw a lot of robins and normally they would fly away very quickly but as I was watching them they were flying away in slow motion almost like they were flying slower than usual."
  • Geometry - "Then I closed my eyes and saw all this geometry that it was almost overwhelming, but it formed cool algorithmic patterns that were very clear, bright, and fluid in motion."
Distortions
  • After images - "Then I waved my hand in the side of vision and I saw after images of my hand for a little but then it went away after a bit."
  • Depth perception distortions - "Being in a car was very odd because it felt like the car was going super fast and then when we were about to turn it felt like we were gonna crash."
  • Environmental patterning - "Everything had a pattern to it almost like the ground was on fire and the trees were breathing."
  • Perspective distortions - "I looked at multiple paintings around my house and they were expanding and contracting in my vision every few seconds"
  • Symmetrical texture repetition - "to the path that was forming symmetrical patterns with all the pebbles"
  • Scenery slicing - "The scenery was also moving to the left and right every few seconds."
Hallucinatory states

Auditory Effects

  • Auditory enhancement - "I listened to music and it just sounded very odd. If I put it on full blast it didn't actually feel as loud when I was sober almost suppressed in a way. But, it sounded a lot better and made me feel very euphoric and actually influenced some of my cognitive effects due to the tone of the music."
  • Auditory hallucination - "I went upstairs and sat on my bed and started hearing weird noises that I'm having trouble trying to describe now. They were like waaaaaaas, and then they changed to shrrples and the le just kept going until it changed into a springggggg sound and it just kept going for a while changing into different sounds."

Transpersonal effects

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